it's not easy...welllll i hope you liked the new shots up. my camera is starting to gather dust because i'm drained of energy, and everything i do seems like a chore now, no matter what it is. i cant focus on anything atall. its not all to do with living here though. i could write a whole paragraph... but that's just feeling sorry for myself!
anyway. i've got a place at stamford college for media, which is great (: i feel like ive kindof got a secured future. thursday ive got a hospital apointment about my anosmia again, i reallly hope it goes well. last time was such a disapointment. saturday ive got opticians apointment, im hoping to get contacts! i hate glasses, they're so annoying. i'm the type of person who keeps taking them on and off all the while, just so i can get away without wearing them for a few mins!
so, this may have been a little bit of a depressing journal entry! nevermind, i'll post an uplifting one soon, so no worries! hehe.
love sarah
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the bit about no energy or drive sounds a lot like depression. not that it takes a genius to figure it out.
but that's what I get and a lot of people I know get when they are depressed. everything is grey and pointless and too tiring. I used to live through the day just to end it and go to sleep.
don't worry about talking about yourself, it must be done! or else you'll explode.
I don't know what anosmia is but I hope it all goes OK at the hospital. same goes for the opticians! you rock glasses anyway
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LOL thanks. you rock short hair! it suits you muchly.
thanks for the word of advice (:
peace out... *explodes*
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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
glad you got your collage place
i hope ya hopital app goes well, plus your glasses shouldn't bother you, i thought they weren't meant to be for permanent use, like mine, although i often wear mine all the time.
cheer up
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yep. i wanna go somewhere else though, but i doubt it will work out. if i go stamford, i'll be expected to live with my dad for... 3/2ish years? im deffs not doing that.
thanks, i hope so too. yeah for pemanent use... but they're just soooo annoying! dont you get annoyed using yours? would you get contacts if you could?
i always try to be positive lol. its just some things that knock me back and remind me of everything again. but thats just it, i feel like im alone, even if im not.
anywayyyy thanks for the comment (:
prodigy 4eva! *high five* hehe.
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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
I went through the stereotypical cliched obligatroy teenage eating disorder thing. couldn't even do that properly, haha! but yeah so I was a bit depressed but I'm pretty much over it now. these days I just can't stop thinking about all the injustice and people dying every few seconds. lame!
ooooh, I see. you should feel special for having something so rare. no, I'm only joking. it must have felt alienating. can you smell nothing at all?
aw, thank you! yesterday at college I kicked a guy because he made a comment about me. I walked past to the photocopier and he was sat on the floor with his legs spread out. he said to his ate, as I went past, "male or female? that is the question." so I turned and gave him a 'look'. then my card wouldn't work with the copier [apparently we need new pin numbers, gaaagghhh!!] so I was angry and on the way back past I pretended to trip over his feet, giving him a fat kick and saying "oo, I AM sorry!" in a very sarcastic way.
power to the people!
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yeahhh. i even get upset if someone kills a bug. lame? lol.
nothing atall. i gased my mums house remember? lmao. thats why im getting a gas detector, its like the size of a pen. haha, it sounds sad, but i'd rather have one than blow the house up like i could have!
yeahh i went hospital, nothing was done. i didnt think anything would be done about it. i had more blood tests, but that was it... i might have to see a private specialist or something.
LMAO! go YOU! that's so mean. you're gorgeous, inside and out. did he say anything back when you kicked him? haah. i got some guys ask me "what block is this", "where do they do the nudity drawing" and "will i demonstraite". i was like jeezeee, he's not gonna get laid that way. i cant believe how immature guys can be. girls; we rock, end of!
*high five*
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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
i don't get too annoyed using mine, just once in a while when i just wanna lay with my head on the side or something.. gotta take em off or they break! >.<
living with split families is hard.. it sucks
Prodigy FTW!
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yeahhh most things in my life suck, i'm working on it though haha.
yes yes yes. i'm listening now. autographs coming our way, hell yeah!
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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
and not everything in yer life sucks. be thankful of that lol.
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